Category: Romance

  • Life Sucks Sometimes

    Today has just been one of those days when I wish I knew the future. I think everything came crashing down today. I’ve been feeling dry for the last few months, ever since my car’s engine cratered, leaving me with more debt. It seems every time I finally conquer debt, life throws me deeper into it. I had just payed my last payment to the card my tires went on when this happened. It took me a year and a half to pay off the 600 dollars. How long will 3000 take me? I need another job, but I don’t know where or what. I’m not really a people person, so that limits me.

    I started the day without getting so much as a “Hello” from Kristen this morning, and nothing last night either. I think she and I are done, but she doesn’t want to face me and say it. I saved her the trouble and simply removed all contacts I had for her; phone, email, address, her mother’s phone, all of it. I suppose if she still wants to be my friend, she can contact me when she’s ready to talk. To be my girlfriend like she so badly wanted to be, she may have lost her opportunity. I don’t heal well and my urge to trust her with any of my heart again is almost nil right now. Though, she shouldn’t feel bad. My urge to trust anything that has breath with my heart right now is almost nil. So, it’s not just her. If she really wants it, she can fight to earn it back. I feel sorry for any girl that tries though. I’m not even sure where my heart is now. It may just be shattered into a million shards and scattered far and wide. I’ve never had some draw me in so strongly. Like all the girls before, she played games with my heart and eventually broke it. Only this time the drop was from a long ways up.

    Add the abnormally stressful day at work this morning and it just further set the tone. It culminated with me having an incident with a canister coming off a dolly and onto the ground. I’ve never been so close to breaking down in public. I did in the car on the way to work though. I almost thought I might need to pull off into a parking lot. Every song somehow fit my situation or somehow reminded me of Kristen. Today also marked 4 years since I last flew.

    Then conversation this morning at work just served to further drag me down as I realized just what a worthless pile of crap I am right now. 26 and living at home with my dad, in a part time job, and paying nothing but gas and car insurance. This isn’t where I envisioned myself being right now. 10 years ago, I would have told you I’d be happily married with a family just starting, just moving into a decent house, and a few years into my career as a pilot. None of those dreams are close to coming true. I don’t think they ever will. I wish I could see the future, but then again, I may not like what I see.

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  • A new movie has claimed the title of “John’s All-Time Favorite Romance”

    Yes, you read that right. I’m not ashamed to admit that I’m a hopeless romantic — some days I feel I lean more heavily on the hopeless than the romantic — and I watch romances on the rare occasion, Rare because I don’t like watching movies that stir up desires in my heart and leave me feeling discontent.

    My favorite used to be “The Princess Bride”, which I have learned is also the favorite of many other men, possibly because there is adventure tied in there with all the things a man long to do: be the hero, save the day, and win the heart of the damsel in distress. Much like Christ did for his Bride, the Church. He put his life on the line to win her heart, and like wise, so we men were patterned the same.

    “The Princess Bride” is nigh over twenty years now and I suppose it was high time that a new romantic adventure movie came out that is of the same caliber. It still holds a place in my heart, but a movie that was released this fall that I hadn’t even heard any hype about despite a few of the high profile cast in it. Robert De Niro , Michelle Pfeiffer, Ian McKellen (Gandolf the Grey from “Lord of the Rings”), and Claire Danes. All give good performances. This movie is called “Stardust”.

    I suppose, for me, what most makes it take the crown from “The Princess Bride” is that the protagonist is an anti-hero. In “Princess Bride”, Westley (Cary Elwes) starts out knowing he loves Buttercup (Robin Wright Penn), and that Buttercup loves him, and his goal is to get her back. Other than the scene showing him as a farm hand, the rest of the movie assumes he’s going to rise to the challenge as he’s already made a name for himself as the Dread Pirate Roberts. In “Stardust”, Tristan Thorn (Charlie Cox) is trying to win the heart of a local girl, Victoria (Sienna Miller), in his mid-19th Century town in England, known as Wall for it is situated on the edge of a wall which is fabled to guard against another realm beyond the gap in it. However, Tristan’s love is unrequited. Victoria looks forward to being betrothed to the more popular Humphrey who — as rumors fly — is preparing to journey all the way to Ipswich for an engagement ring. The same night she tells Tristan this, they see a star fall beyond the wall and Tristan asks if she would marry him if he could fetch the star. So, he sets out on the journey beyond the wall and into the magical realm of Stormhold without a clue of what lies beyond.

    I find Tristan to be more endearing a character than Westley. While Westley is daring, brave, and dashing; Tristan is shy, bungling, and naive. Tristan is me, the anti-hero. I would go further, but I don’t want to spoil the movie any more than I already have, so you will just have to watch it yourselves and see what it’s like.

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